I'm stressed and depressed

I know I have no reason whatsoever to be stressed

No exams

No coursework deadline

No longer covering 2 big wards with dispensary slots in between

No crappy on-call shift and crap to follow up

But I really do!

 

Just an update for you guys(as if anyone really interested)

I have quit after working as a hospital pharmacist for a year

I.E.....I'm JOBLESS

Yeah.....You didn't get me wrong....

I'm jobLESS....didn't do any arrangement or find myself a new job before i quit

I know most of u would say: Why on earth are you doing that??? Are you nuts? This is soooo not 'ailing'

Well.....To be honest.......I DON'T KNOW....

I really don't have any idea of what had driven me to make this decision but well, well.....I have done it...again.... putting myself, my life into a total MESS....

 

And now....I'm stressing my ass out, looking frantically and ringing aimlessly just to look for any job offers

But the main problem is I couldn't get any permanent job even if there are plenty of offers out there

I'm going back for a 5 weeks holiday (hurray....the ONLY thing that keep me going for now) in February

So tell me, who would employ someone who is going to apply for 5 weeks annual leave after starting for no more than 2 months???

Therefore, I have no choice but to locum.....(well I intend to locum at the beginning anyway)

AND to make the thing worse, its not a good time to locum right now....

Most employer would not be happy for their staff to take any annual leave at the moment, which means....not a good sign for locums

And....being so not ORGANISED and haven't booked myself any locum before I quit....

It mean a tough time to get myself filled with jobssssssssss

Gosh....See what a mess I've placed myself into

Well, what to do....This is the decision I have made and I can only bear with it!

Give me strength to keep me going!!

And support me (Financial support especially welcomed)

HAHAHAHAHAHA.....

 

Ok.....This is why I'm STRESSED....

Now going to the matter of fact that I'm DEPRESSED....

Needless to guess....Good old matter actually........

I think ppl who know me might have realised that I haven't updated my picture for ages

I mean for AGESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

Because I've gained so much weight since I came back from Malaysia

Well, no one to blame but myself, who gobble up all cakes, chocolate and crisp that I've spotted with my panda-like eyes which have now been squished to a small line due to the bulging cheeks....neh....just like this one----->..........

PLUS....I had cut my hair (again)......and its soooo NOT NICE....and I feel like I'm an old lady who wanna pretend like a primary school student.....

PLUS....I dont know what have I done to my skin.....

My once smooth and flawless skin on my forehead (Ok I'm exagerating but give some face ok?) .....is totally RUINED

My whole forehead gone really ROUGH.....

I really have no idea what happen!!I haven't changed any of my skincare but it just suddenly deteriorate!!

ARGH....I just feel like
Anyone who can intro me some good but cheap skincare??

(Or buy me some to fill the Xmas stockin?)

Well....It has been a great while since I last updated this blog....well well, look at that!

This really tells that I haven't really given any attention to my blog for long while....

I'm officially a quarter of a century old last week....i.e 22nd November in case you dont know!

And the stupid profile still showing.............................23????????????

 

Well well, time to accept the fact!!!!

ARGH!!!!!!

 

Well, last but not least, shall I just take this opportunity to say THANK YOU to everyone who had made the effort to ring, sms, msn, sending cards or even pressie to me....

ARIGADO!!!